PUSH

i may be alone for some time.. ooppss for a very long time pala... but i must say God let that happen for a purpose.. He let me find Him and myself.. I was too busy finding that someone, something or somewhere that will make me happy that I forgot to find Him and myself first.. For all these years, i suddenly reminisce this little skinny girl who asks everything that she wants from God.. All the while she thought that she had nothing.. but as she grew older, she had learned to fight for her rights, for her family, for her friends, and for her dreams.. she did everything to get what she wants.. along her way, gradually because of the fast-changing environment she belongs to.. she forgot the best thing that she had when she thought she had nothing but herself.. it was her BIG faith in God.. all of us have different stories how we lost, had and hold God in our lives..

I was on the top of my dreams when i suddenly realize that these things won't make happy.. a career, working at the office, sitting in front of a computer and doing the job that i love.. a house, where i share with my family.. the clothes, shoes that i love wearing on and off.. material things.. but these things make me happy for a limited time.. at the end of the day, i always find myself empty even if i almost have everything that i dream of having..

I started to fall in and out of love, i trusted them but that was not enough to make them stay.. they left me with questions that i never had the answers.. I prayed and prayed for someone that will stay with me through thick and thin.. but they had left me behind..

I felt alone and miserable.. That was i decided to hold to my career that I forgot how t enjoy what I have.. I begin to stay away from my friends.. I spend a lot of time at home which i don't usually do on weekends.. i started being an emotional lad that fails to see the colors of life.. i admit that i became bitter and sad for several years.. I felt like i had done everything I can and yet I gain nothing.. Everyone's leaving me behind..

Until i was touched by God's grace of repentance when i clicked a link from a friend's FB post.. i decided to read the scriptures all throughout the page.. Suddenly, i felt that I found myself uttering our Lord's prayer and I felt i was healed and was born again.. All the things that I consider 'bitter' before means to me now as challenges or rocks that He uses to let me open my heart to Him once again.. I started going to church again, pray when i felt like praying not just for myself but for others as well even for those who opposes against me.. Now i realized that it's not that i had nothing, I have the most important thing, my BIG FAITH in Him.. Everything in my life seems to be falling into their proper places so to speak.. I am more happy and enjoy life what our God offers us.. He wants us to be humble before Him, be thankful of every little blessings He had given us and wait for Him to give us what our heart desires in His own time and place..

man can't live on bread alone.. you must leave a BIG space in your heart for the BIG Man up there.. He's willing to listen to your disappointments, frustrations.. you just got to keep on praying and hear what He wanted you to Hear.. He will always be there for you.. He's willing to listen and He loves it when you call upon Him.. PUSH.. Pray Until Something Happens..

a season

It may be a time of new beginnings, a time of growth, a time of reaping the harvest of hard work, or a time of rest. Trust this beautiful order. Everything in its time.

the one

someone who sings to me at random moments.. more goofy than romantic.. make fun of me just to hear my laugh.. lay on a blanket with and count the stars.. someone who would be my best friend and would never break my heart.. will keeps me smile..

the one

someone who sings to me at random moments..
more goofy than romantic..
make fun of me just to hear my laugh..
lay on a blanket with and count the stars..
someone who would be my best friend and would never break my heart..
will keeps me smile..